29 August 2015…I start writing my story about me and Yuchun…
It’s two days after his enlistment. I would be lying if I say I didn’t miss him. I think all Chunsas feel the same way as I do.
Okay, so let me start my story… this can be very long or very short. I don’t know if I’ll be able to put into words all the things that I am feeling. But I’m thinking it should be simple and not too detailed so you won’t get bored. 😀
I don’t really remember the exact day but maybe it was around November 2012, I searched for Korean dramas on Youtube and I found “I Miss You.” I started to watch it because I was interested in the story line and I liked the female lead. Of course I didn’t know Yuchun at that time. My impression the first time I saw him was “Who is this man? His face looks like someone who’s played a drama in the past but he is not so handsome.” I really didn’t think Yuchun was handsome that time. 😀 I finished the drama and forgot about him.
Early in 2013, Sungkyunkwan Scandal was played on KBS World. I watched it, again not because of Yuchun, but because of the story line. When I saw Yuchun in SKKS, I was thinking “Ummm… I think this was the male lead in I Miss You”. I liked his character as Lee Seon Joon, cool but a little bit stupid in love hehehe. No, not stupid, but pure haha! I watched it twice! And that was the start for me. I searched for information about him thru Wikipedia and learned about JYJ and his old group TVXQ. Truth is, I’m not a person who is updated on K-pop, I almost don’t know anything about K-pop. So naturally I didn’t know about those two groups. JYJ was basically my first idol group.
That was the beginning of my craziness for Yuchun. I concentrated more on his current group JYJ and looked for their videos on Youtube. The very first video I saw of him singing was his duet with Jaejoong, singing Been So Long. Honestly, it was Jaejoong’s voice I got attracted to at first. I don’t know when Yuchun’s voice started melting my heart. I won’t deny I also love Junsu’s voice very much, but listening to Yuchun’s voice, I can feel a totally different sensation. His voice is of a different color from JJ’s and Junsu’s. Each of us have different unforgettable “moments” with his voice. Mine was when he sang 너에게…기대 (Leaning On You) during his Housewarming Party. He put all his heart and emotion in singing it that I almost cried when I heard it. I could not explain how he touched my heart. Are we really emotional to begin with? Or did we become emotional after knowing Yuchun? I don’t know. All I know is, I feel like he is singing to me alone when he sings.
2014 was the craziest year for me. It started in January when I flew to Bali to see Junsu but in the end I didn’t see him. Then I had a chance to go back for a business trip. I went to the place where Yuchun did his Elle photo shoot. The Villa was really beautiful. In June, I went for my first Korea trip to attend his Housewarming Party. I really wanted to see Yuchun before his enlistment. As I was still single (still am) and I had no boyfriend, I was free to go. Who knows what will happen after two years, after he finishes his Military duties? I may already be married by then and my husband may not allow me to go. And then I will regret it for the rest of my life. Without knowing anything I decided to go. I didn’t know how to get tickets, what flight to take, the transport when I reached Seoul, etc. A friend of mine asked me to twit a message on Twitter to ask for fans who were going. It was like a miracle that someone replied and unbelievable she is from the same country as mine! These two girls helped me, one to get the FM ticket, and the other one accompanied me to the FM itself. Chunsas are amazing! After that I wanted to see them perform live, so in August, I went again to Korea to see JYJ’s concert. Everything was just so crazy and unbelievable and unforgettable. Those were the sweetest memories I have of Yuchun and JYJ.
Yuchun and JYJ are not only idols for me. Yuchun, Junsu and Jaejoong have given me so much to be happy about. By loving them, I met so many friends and some have become my closest friends until now. I’m really thankful. Their personality, their life and their spirit have had undeniable impact on me. And the JYJ fans and Chunsas, I’m always amazed at them, at how they love and protect their idols. I can’t believe I belong to this world.
What does Yuchun mean to me? It cannot be described in words. He is an idol, someone I will never really meet personally, but I feel like he is also a brother, a friend, a baby, and someone who has somehow filled my life for the last two and a half years. The more I know about him as a person, the more I love him. I admire how humble he is, how he says what he wants to say, and does what he wants to do, wear what he wants to wear, even if fans say he looks like an ajhussi. I don’t love him as an idol now, but more as a “friend.” He is someone who makes me cry, someone who makes me happy, someone who’s always beside me even though there’s the vast Pacific Ocean between us. I go on trips because of him. People say I’m crazy for spending so much going on those trips, but I don’t care. I love being crazy about Yuchun.
If someone asks me why do I like Yuchun, I cannot explain it kkkk. I love him not because of certain specific reasons. I just naturally love him. I’m like someone who has fallen in love, I don’t know when or why or how. I just have. I love the crazy Yuchun, his thousand faces and expressions. I love him cute, I love him sexy, sometimes he is like a little boy, sometimes he’s the hottest man, sometimes he is the ajhussi! He is still very handsome even in ajhussi hairstyle or clothes. I just think of it as seeing what Yuchun will look like when he really becomes an ajhussi haha! I love all those little things and every little thing about him.
And now that he has gone to do his duty as a Korean man, I will be here waiting for him when he comes back. Two years is such a long time for us to wait, right? But rest as an idol and become an ordinary man, isn’t that what he dreams about? Wouldn’t he be pleased if we accepted and appreciated his wish? Can we not let him enjoy his own private time as a citizen of his country for this two years?
To Yuchunie, please take care of yourself. Be healthy and be happy. I’m so proud of you and I’m really thankful for knowing you. Let’s meet again after you finish your Military Service.
P.S. I’d like to acknowledge Jellybean’s help in editing and sorting my thoughts. She said she was going to interview me and she did and everything just came out and it became like this. Thank you Jellybean.
Written by: Angella
(Picture cr. to ladyM and VIRGINIABOY)