Why is it whenever I see Yu Chun leaving a country after performing, I feel tears welling in my eyes even when I don’t live in those countries? It is as though a part of me is missing when I see him gone. The airport pictures of him heading straight to the Immigration counter dampen my spirit; leaving me empty and hoping he will perform again in another country.
Then the whole painful process starts all over again when I see him leaving the new country he has just performed in.
Why did such depressive feelings persist even when I had yet to see him in any “live” concert or fan meeting until my first JYJ concert in Jamsil Stadium (Seoul) in August 2014? In that concert, that same empty feeling started the moment Yu Chun left the stage after JYJ’s last song.
Those sad feelings intensified when he left Yokohama after his last fan meeting in July 2015 before his enlistment in August. It would be 2 years before we can see him again. Would it be a difficult 2 years for us as we wait for him? Is he worth waiting for?
When I read his poetic farewell at the last fan meeting, I teared all over again. How can we not wait for someone who tells us it’s selfish of him to make us wait? A man willing to let his love go. But will we leave? I think not, as fans stood in the Yokohama airport and captured the trailing lights of the plane carrying him into the distant 2 years. We will stand silently by his side even when he doesn’t know.
Today is already the last.
I feel sad about it.
It would be great if everyone could wait for me.
But it’s also okay if you won’t wait for me.
After two years, it would be nice if we could meet again.
Probably, the feeling won’t be the same as today,
but even if you forget about it, I’m still okay with it.
Just keep this moment today in your heart.
Written by: YC Love
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