Being a 48 year-old municipal physician has really kept me busy and stressed out. Watching TV would be considered a luxury, much more follow any series unless it will be shown late at night and I just happen to be having another attack of insomnia.
During one of those times in 2012, I happened to see a trailer of SKKS in our local channel. Almost immediately, I got mesmerized by the male lead, (I’m a single mother of a beautiful 22 year-old chef). It was surprising to me that I had that instant feeling because I’m the classic workaholic, no-time-for-nonsensicals kind of person.
His eyes and voice found a niche in my heart and I found myself rushing home every afternoon just to be able to catch the series and I would even watch a replay online.
I thought it was just a fleeting fascination because he portrayed the role of LSJ really well and he has good chemistry with the other cast members as well, and of course the historical aspect was also a come on.
My heart proved me wrong. After 1 week of watching, searching the net for the whole series the following weekend, reading more about him, his other drama series and his advocacy, learning that he was also a singer/composer (his music has captured my life), finding about JYJ, their story, I found myself wanting to know him more and more.
I was hooked.
Everyday since that time, I was getting more and more “involved.”
After SKKS, I watched RTP, Miss Ripley through English subbed sites and I was one of the millions who followed Missing You.
I was into his series, the latest being TGWSS, and also started downloading his videos and following his activities.
I’ve even joined different groups and followed/liked/befriended people online. A 48 yr old FANGIRL! A Chunsa.
Does this make any sense? NOT to my friends, certainly NOT to my family, they ALL thought I was acting crazy and definitely not my age.
But Yoochun did something IN me.
He made me feel ALIVE again.
I feel excited, happy, I see myself crying, smiling, anticipating, angry, contented, almost child-like, all those feelings that I’ve somehow lost for the past several years after my life has gone into a routine (waking up – working – sleeping).
It felt SO GOOD.
Before I taught myself just to empathize and not sympathize (as this can be dangerous in our profession), but after Chunnie entered my life, it feels wonderful to be able to have all sorts of feelings. Makes me even look forward to having another relationship (20 years after my 1st love).
This change IN me soon started showing, and it was my family who noted it first. I was smiling more and sleeping better, my staff said I was less cranky and less irritable, my patients feel more at ease talking with me AND my office and bedroom is now filled with all the YOOCHUN (mostly JYJ as they are giveaways from TM Philippines) stuff that I can have. They all say I’M BLOOMING.
In short, YooChun is a God-given experience for me, a gift to bring out the BEST in me.
Call me — An Ahjumma – YES!, Noona – GLADLY! Fangirl – NO Problem! Chunsa – Definitely Forever! How much do I love him? There’s no measure for it!
There’s only one other thing that I wish for, for now, and that is to get a chance to meet him.
Not only because to see him in person would be the penultimate experience, but most especially to be able to THANK him.
They say that “life begins at 40″, I say, life does begin at 40, especially when you have YooChun around.
It’s been a three-year “love affair” for me and it is still the same feelings I have until now.
To Jellybean: Thank you so much, for putting into words and action what and how we all feel. I hope that one of these days Yoochun himself will chance upon your blog (he is after all very much like us and in the same wavelength) when he “misses” and “check” on us.
Ooops sorry, this is taking so long.
Congratulations and please keep the faith burning for all of us.
Take care and regards to everyone in the group. I’m always here.
AND TO PARK YOOCHUN, THANK YOU for BEING YOU! Allow me to say it: Mahal Kita bilang ikaw (I love you for who you are).
I am always keeping the faith.
Written by: Dr. Cora-chun
Revised original posted @ ParkYoochunSGFC
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