I don’t know where or how to start. When I read excerpts from your interview, at first I was laughing at some things you said, especially about your lazy thumb. We do have some uncanny similarities. But when I read the part where you said you feel like singing is for other members, oh you don’t know how awfully sad that made me feel.
Let me say this upfront though, so there’s no misunderstanding: I am supporting you in whatever you want to do, in whatever makes you happy. I’m running with you for the next one thousand years. So there! That’s how much I’ve come to care about you. But I’m also just a normal fan. There is something in me that is selfish and greedy and thinks only of what pleasures it. And it’s your voice and your singing that does it for me, besides seeing you act and well, just seeing you. So please forgive me if it pains me when you say you feel like singing should be done by other members; that you feel you shouldn’t be greedy about it. Please forgive me if it makes me unbearably sad to learn that you’ve turned down a recording offer. Please forgive me for being sad even if in my heart I truly understand you.
And please forgive me if I hold on to this: “I always have plans but I just can’t seem to act on it.” Someday, may your heart tell you, “Yoochun-ah, it’s time to act on it.”
You say you have been running one-third of your life with us (I have only actually been with you for a fourth of that third). Well, let us run to the ends of the earth with you if that’s what it takes for you to believe that you will always have us. You think it’s okay for us to move on while you’re gone? Maybe it is, but do you really think we could? I can’t, you know. One may forget an idol or a favorite actor or a favorite singer, but one never forgets a beloved. I guess you don’t want to hold us to a promise, so don’t. Come back after two years and see for yourself that we are still here, just waiting to resume the journey with you. I, for one, will NEVER be treading this path with anyone else. This is a once-in-a-lifetime thing for me. It’s only for you. ONLY YU.